I swear my family is driving me crazy. I think we are the most dysfunctional family ever, its like we co-exist, just tolerating each other. I sometimes wonder if we are the only Somali family like this. Well we have never actually met any of our cousins ever (well except for some old women my mother grew up with), but I have never met any close member of our family thats about my age. Another thing we havnt met any of our aunts and uncles, my mother said they all live in Somalia and the USA. I always feel out of place among other Somali people, since they all have large extended families and millions of cousins, and we dont even have one:(..ohh well.
I think thats why we always seem to argue and stuff, coz we are in each others facing all the time, we dont even act like how other Somali people do. Some of my Somali friends keep on saying im "fish n chips" or acting "white", just because I dont like what they do. I mean I wish I could like what they do, like going to weddings, Somali partes or them Shisha palaces. Every time I go out with them, I have to force smile and fake laugh coz I'm not enjoying all that. I don't even know what I actually enjoy most, but its not that.
I don't know, and on top of all this, my sisters and brothers are driving me up the wall. Its like every time I come home, tired, just wanting to eat and sleep, theres an argument over some little silly thing, and until its settled, they are screaming and shouting like freaks. If this doesn't happen, then one of them has entered my room, and taken something I need or one of my sisters has worn an item of mine. The sad thing is, they keep on doing this because they know I dont do anything about it, I just get angry for a minute and then the next minute I'm helping them wit something or giving whatever they want. All my other sisters are so not like me, its like they remember every single favour they done for you "ohh remember I gave you £1 last year" or something silly like that, and they dont seem to be able to say sorry if their in the wrong. My younger sister would never ever say sorry even if you had a gun to her head, she calls it "pride" not saying sorry, I have to be the one going over to say sorry for something she has done,s o she can start speaking to everyone again.
Anywayz I'm planing on going to the states next year after I graduate, so maybe things will change.
5 comments:
Hey Iman, you're not the only one who doesn't dig some Somali hangouts. Weddings are the worst; if you've been to one, you've been to all. All that gossip and nonsense. Do what you gotta do and don't let people pull any somali BS on ya'. We love nothing more than be clones of one another.
They say you can choose your friends but you can't choose your family. Sometimes it feels like you want to replace them but other times you want to hug them and tell them you love them. Its the up and downs that make it interesting. I don't think its dysfunctional to have squabbles but rather its dysfunctional to find a family that doesn't.
Wlc to the blogosphere albeit its late.
Thanks Aya, its nice to see im not the only one who feels this way.
SleepDepraved, I guess your right when you said "I don't think its dysfunctional to have squabbles but rather its dysfunctional to find a family that doesn't"...it does make sense
PS. Thanks for the welcome, this site is pretty cool.
I surely think you need to go for some holiday down Africa...
Atleast to get some cloning and to see those cousins,uncles and aunts of yours your mum is claiming to be there
lol, yeah maybe I should, I would love to see if they really do exist
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